a nation of lions led by donkeys...

every Indian (except those politicians) wud prefer to die fighting for the nation than to die while dining in a hotel with his loved ones...every Indian (except ...) wud like to find out the reasons - why we are being constantly targeted and who are those bullshits ??? every time, military personnel have been putting their lives at stake, some are being gunned down and after so called victory, we see a sense of pride in it...what is it ??? do we have any doubt on their (officer's) capability ? if the sense of pride comes at the cost of so much innocent lives, we wud never want to be proud (at least me)...leave other scams aside, talk only of irregularities in security measures... India's top security agency takes nine hours to extend help to those who were trapped at Hotel-Taj...the bullets penetrate the body of our key security members in spite of wearing bullet-proof jackets (do u remember the case of Karkare,Kamte,Salaskar and many more...)...police constable of country's financial hub is forced to fight with rifles even when highly trained terrorists are using highly sophisticatd weapons...we all know that there are terrorist camps in PoK, but can't understand why the govt. of India is only begging to Pakistan... Bangladesh, which got independence only with the help of India is nowadays sending terrorists every other day in order to create havoc...these self-serving, selfish and visionless politicians have made our life miserable...nothing more can be expected from these charge-sheeted ministers with criminal background...it may seem almost impossible friends to change the system which is corrupted from top to bottom, but we don't have any other option ...don't know - what is stored in my future as i feel totally insecure nowadyas bcoz - i too could have been there !!!!!!!

an irrecoverable loss....

yes, it was a nice journey which ended in a complete misery...which the entire world call as 26/11, had a very personal and touchy impact on me which strikes me when i do self-study, i play carom, i write papers and even when i prepare to write blogs...you may know him by the name "Malayesh Banerjee", but for me, he was the only son of 'my' Banerjee sir, who taught us chemistry when we prepared for IIT-JEE...
i had not sufficient percantage in 10th to get admission into his batch (perhaps bcoz i was from state board), but once we (actually we were four) met him and told that we were from 'Netarhat Residential School' (now don't ask me, what does this name sound ?), he permitted us with the condition that we would deliver it in good terms...as i had developed the tendency earlier, i sat on the last bench which was an isolated corner too...as soon as he entered into the class room, he raised a question and after getting some unsatisfactory answers, he pointed his fingers towards me...i remember the exact question but i wud tell u only that it was from 'mole-concept'...fortunately enough, i answered him and in reward, he ordered me to come on the first bench...although i felt little bit reluctant in moving ahead, it gave me an immense pleasure bcoz u never get compliments from Banerjee sir(as my seniors - his previous batch students - had told me !!!)...from then onwards, i always sat on the first bench, very often he asked the questions from me and though i couldn't answer all the times - he kept on motivating me...once we couldn't solve a problem and he inspired us by saying "don't get tensed - my son cleared IIT in his second attemptttttt"...i remember so many instances but let it be inside me as those will always...)...my friends used to tell me-"rahul-if he were encouraging us so much, we would have qualified IIT"...i too qualified IIT, but sorry sir, couldn't convert it in admission......................
his only son-27 yrs old,was all set to tie the knot on 6th December...a story that started 7 yrs back with a girl named ***, was about to restart but with million of colors added into it...all of a sudden,there was a firing at Cafe Leopold and what followed next is well known to all of us...friends,till now, i have looked at this inconsolable loss only with Banerjee sir in my mind...i dont know-how much painful it would be,when i will look at it taking others into consideration as well ???????

sometimes in your life, you start thinking whether you are advancing in the right direction or not ? whether you are on your way to achieve your cherished dream or not ? i think i am going through the same phase !!! "ENGINEERING " is not, what i am meant for - i realised it later i.e. when it was not possible for me to go back !!! "CITY LIFE" or say -" SOLITARY LIFE" is not what i ever dreamt of !!! everytime i want to spend more and more time with my loved ones, i have to go far and far away...everytime i want to do stuffs of my own choice, i feel some unidentified forces coming midway... then what is there that enforces me to go for what i don't like ? what is there that compels me to opt the same unwilling vocation in which i am no more interested ? these are the questions that i simply can't answer...